I thought she had pneumonia, and she did, but it was because she was laying around so much due to her real issue, a pinched nerve which the vet and I believe occurred while she was giving birth. After 6 weeks of careful nurturing, she just couldn't seem to go on any longer. It was only at the end that I realized how much pain she was actually enduring, and I vowed to have the vet out the next day to put her down, but she was gone when the sun rose on Sunday. As I sit here trying to decide if I had done everything I could for this awesome ewe, I realize that I had, and yet I still question if I could have done something sooner that would have tipped the scale to her advantage.
My only consolation is that I have 2 wonderful ewe lambs from this sheep, Solace, her lamb from last year and Seneca, this year's ewe lamb. Seneca gently nugged her mom to try to get her to get up on Monday morning and it was darned near my undoing. I give Seneca extra attention and scratches, in the hopes that will help ease her separation anxiety, but it's still sad to see her wandering around looking for a mom that isn't there.
This shepherdess is too soft hearted for this sort of thing. Sarah will be buried on the hill over looking the pastures where she may now rest forever.........pain free.
I am so sorry Kelly. There is nothing that gives you that dull throb in your stomach as seeing the lambs wonder why their mom doesn't get up. You did everything you could. Rest in the thought that you gave her the best care possible. Having lost Bella (my dog) this spring, I know how you're feeling today. We are all thinking of you!
ReplyDeleteYou know how much I coveting Sarah as an excellent Shetland, and to read about how attached you got to her as an individual got to ME. I am so sorry you lost her after all you did for her. Rest in peace, Sarah, and shine on in your ewe lambs!
ReplyDeleteThank you Stephen and Michelle, your kindness brings new tears to my eyes.
ReplyDeleteKelly, Sarah was very lucky to have you as her shepherdess. I hope her lambs will bring you comfort and keep those good genetics in your flock.
ReplyDeleteThere are times ... there are no words. This is one of those times.
ReplyDelete(((Hugs)))
Makes me so sad that you lost one of your sheep. I'm glad you have some of her legacy.
ReplyDeleteMakes me so sad that you lost one of your sheep. I'm glad you have some of her legacy to live on.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry to hear about Sarah. She was such a nice shetland. I owe her much as well. I never got a chance to see her in person, and yet I see her influence in my own flock. Don't beat yourself up over it. Easy for me to say, but sometimes there's just nothing you can do, and your best efforts aren't enough. I think we've all been there at one point.
ReplyDeleteGod's blessings,
Rich
Whispering Pines
Oh, Kelly!
ReplyDeleteYou were such a gem to me when we struggled with Miniel. Your support meant so much to me...I'll always be grateful to you and the empathy you gave me. You are a kind, and generous soul and one day Sarah will find you again and thank you for being her shepherdess.......
I am so very sorry for your heartbreaking loss. RIP Sarah...
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry. I lost a ram after 6 months of almost daily care... I know how you return in your mind to the first minute you noticed something was wrong and wonder if you had done something differently at that point if the outcome could have been changed. But you tried your hardest! It just plain hurts sometimes to love animals.
ReplyDeleteAll of you have no idea how much your kindness has warmed my heart. Thank you, thank you, thank you.
ReplyDeleteI can't believe how much this has bothered me.............I guess I'm just getting soft in my old age. :)
I'll be thinking of you, Kelly. That's an incredibly sad turn of events and a terrible loss for you. It sounds like you did alot for each other. Enjoy Sarah's offspring. :) So very sorry...
ReplyDeleteI just lost one this weekend as well. I am amazed how much it has bothered me. I too keep second guessing myself. I nearly lost it when I read your lamb was nudging her mother. I don't think I could have handled that. {hug}
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry. It's so hard when our beloved friends must leave us behind.
ReplyDeleteThank you, I still find myself looking for her in the pasture.
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